Abiding in Christ

Divine Intimacy #218

Today, I find myself sitting in a hospital room overlooking the Hillsborough River, which flows into Tampa Bay and eventually the Atlantic Ocean. At least I think that’s what it does. One follows the other, and as they travel together, they merge into one body of water. The river is the starting place, just as Jesus is the starting point of love and grace.

As I read the meditation this morning and gaze out at the view, I thought about how important it is for me to receive Jesus every day I can, especially since I’m not well. I’ve been in this hospital before and will likely be again. A double lung transplant has put me in a “chronic” condition that brings me here at times. I count on the will of God to bring me back to my earthly home or to His heavenly one. Whatever is His will. What’s key is that I stay connected to Him, despite all the interruptions. Regular daily life has its bumps in the schedule as well, but being here is just a little less controlling.

One thing I truly miss is daily Mass and receiving Jesus. The last time I was here, it hadn’t been easy to find someone to bring me communion. They had chaplains, but very few Extraordinary Ministers of Holy Communion. I thought about the graces of Holy Communion and how it helps us draw closer to Christ. I found solace in knowing many friends were offering their communions for me. I offered spiritual communions and thought of all who cannot receive regularly in other countries.

I watched Mass online and wished I could have found a way for someone to bring Jesus to me. Then I had a great surprise! A woman knocked on my door, said she was here as an Extraordinary Minister, and asked if I would like to receive Holy Communion! My heart swelled and leaped with delight. We prayed together, and then my friend, who was visiting, and I received Him. Oh my Jesus. He never lets me down!

I imagine Jesus as the river and me as the bay. He was going to come to me at some point. I prayed that my dependence and will would be inclined toward Him. And He did come! Together, I felt us flow out to the ocean, to the indwelling of the Holy Trinity. He relieved my hunger and provided me with peace. I feel protected, provided for, and loved by Him, and regardless of my health, He is all I need. Of course, I need you too, and I am grateful for your many prayers.

I pray you find His love, in health or in sickness, today and always. Keep the river flowing into your bay, where He will provide all you need.